The last week was miserably wet and stormy. We’ve all been stuck inside and cabin fever hit a new high. What a relief that the bad weather broke over the weekend and I was able to turn the boys outside! I couldn’t get them out there fast enough! We need that new school year in a bad way, can I get an amen? Maybe lots of other homeschool moms are only just now beginning to settle into summer, but we’ve been on a break for two months and I’ve had enough of it. Give me some structure, please!
Our plan is to start the school routine slowly, so we will be doing half weeks for the next couple of weeks and gradually easing back into a five day rhythm. Meanwhile, I’m working on lots of ideas for this space! I have a draft folder overflowing with ideas but only a very, very small tidbit of time each day to work on them. So while we are working on making slow changes, I am verrrrrryyy veerrrrryyyy gradually preparing myself and this space for a more structured blogging routine.
My heart’s desire has always been to provide useful and encouraging content, but I’ve been in a state of mental fog for so long. It’s hard to explain it to anyone who has never experienced it! Have you ever felt like you had so many things to say, but when you tried to say them nothing would come out? I’ve experienced this phenomenon in the physical realm before, and it was so frustrating. And for the past couple of years, the “tongue tie” moved to my fingers, and it has kept me from writing.
Where writing had once been something that gave me creative relief and even became a point of pride (Hmmmm, ouch. That hurts to admit!), after a while it became a burden. I truly believe God has kept me in an uninspired condition for a season so He could draw me nearer to Him and both heal my wounds and give me a message to share.
Of late, I took a few months off from daily writing practice to evaluate my priorities, and though it was partly unintentional, the Lord spoke volumes to me in that time away from the keyboard. But more recently, He has confirmed in me the call in me to write for women. I can say with confidence that something is growing in me, and I can’t yet begin to describe it!
This creative pregnancy is different than the physical pregnancies that brought my sons to life. This is spiritual and much bigger than I can carry on my own. Thank Jesus that He will be faithful! Philippians 1:6 promises that “he who began a good work in [me] will carry it on to completion” (NIV), so I rest in that truth now and not my own ability to see the work through.
Once again, I will press pause on publishing, but this time it is very much intentional, and even though it will appear that nothing is happening on the surface, I am going to be a busy bee working underneath! I am brainstorming and praying, seeking vision and words and God’s blessing. I refuse to step out apart from His blessing! I’ve done that already a time or two, whit quite underwhelming results. It’s about time I let go and let Him do the work he wants to do in this space! Stay tuned, because I know He’s working on something good.