LIMITLESS. She anointed my head with oil and spoke the word “limitless” over my fears. That one word stretched out in the heavens over my head and covered me like a warm blanket. In my mind’s eye, I could see the limitless universe and the infinite God who is simultaneously holding it all together and holding His hand over my small life, pinching His fingers around the small thorn of fear in my heart, yearning to remove it as far as the East is from the West but patiently waiting my permission.
“I am afraid of lack,” I admitted. “I’m always afraid there won’t be enough money to cover everything that we need, that I will make poor decisions and then we will be financially broken, that I don’t have enough to contribute, that my talents are not enough. I’m afraid that I will fail to do what God has called me to do and I will carry that failure with me to the grave.”
“The Spirit of the Lord has given me a word for you, Sarah. LIMITLESS. He says that He has infinite resources to cover all your needs. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills, Sarah, and He will provide for you all that you need to rise to the call He has given you!” She began to pray over my fear, gently holding my hands and crying out to the God in Heaven to unleash his boundless grace over my life.
As she pulled away, she said, “I see that you are a leader. God has filled you with direction and skill and He will bless your spiritual gift with everything you need to fulfill the vision He gave you and to operate in it.”
I wept. “But the dream is too big!” I exclaimed.
Again, she pulled me in close to pray. She called to His Spirit inside me, called for me to rise up, called for me to cease hiding, called for the Lord to lead me gently into His will. I don’t remember the exact words, but I do remember the prophetic vibration and the urgency and peace that settled over my shoulders like a cloak.
“God is raising up an army of women for you to lead. He is moving people to support you into position. He is equipping you for the good purpose He planned for you from the beginning of time.” This little woman, fierce in faith and sweet in spirit, blessed me and I returned to my seat with the weight of God’s shekinah glory following on my heels.
How can I doubt? Yet I do. In light of all that happened that weekend, how can I doubt His word to me? I feel so small. So obscure. So weak and so unworthy to carry His banner. I hunger for the things of God, but my capacity to contain Him is still so narrow. My boundaries are finite, but my God is limitless!
Great is our Lord, and abundant in power; his understanding is beyond measure. (Psalm 147:5)