Who knows if it’s just because there’s only a little more than a week until Christmas, or if it’s because my kids are just particularly nuts, but this week has been a hard parenting week. I want so much for us to grasp this season and make Christmastime special- I think this same thing every year and always regret that we didn’t slow down and savor the time more. But this week, I feel like I’m doing all I can do just to hold a lid on the crazy feelings simmering inside!
Yesterday, we came to a full stop. I was so drained physically and emotionally that all I could do was lay on the couch. The boys were trying everything in their power to hurt one another and tear the house down, but I seriously couldn’t even begin to deal with it. We haven’t done any schoolwork this week and I feel like we probably won’t start again until after the New Year. This year just feels done!
Over the next couple of weeks, we need to press the reboot on our relationships. I feel urgency in the need to connect with both the boys and feed into the trusting and lovely parts of them so that the crazy won’t be hovering over the holidays. We have quite a lot of things to do over the next week, so I think attempting normalcy should probably wait for a while!
Tomorrow, we have our first family holiday party, and then there is another on Sunday. Unfortunately, both of these gatherings are usually accompanied by a large amount of outdoor free play, but the forecast calls for thunderstorms all weekend! Today, we’ll be baking lots of cookies to bring along and I’ll be praying for a break in the rain.
Monday evening, we have a Christmas party with Seth’s Cub Scout troop, and the rest of next week will likely consist of Christmas crafting and present wrapping. I finished all my shopping yesterday and now I just have to wait for a few more packages to arrive by mail! My parents will come over Friday, then we have candlelight services at church on Saturday- and then it’s Christmas… there’s a small chance that I am more excited that the kids are! I am so thrilled about the gifts they are getting this year, and I can’t wait to see them playing with them.
I already received my Christmas gift, and that’s something I’ll have to write about in more detail later. It’s something huge that I’ve been praying for a long time! Aren’t you dying to know what it is? I’ve got to let the newness of it work its way out and settle into the reality of it before I share. I seriously doubt anyone is reading, but if you are now you are dying with suspense. There, my job is done.
Wish me luck, now. Here’s hoping I can turn this bus around and make the next week awesome. The Christmas crazy will too soon be gone!